My partner took her own life. I had no idea she had Borderline Personality Disorder. She was a Quiet and High Functioning Borderline. This was 100% hidden from me. For what these terms actually mean, if anything anymore, really. I had no idea. I had no clue. Their were no signs. Suddenly she was gone.
This was the only way I knew how to cope through that period of time. She died late Thursday night, December 27, 2018. I recorded this close to 3 hours later around 12:35 am way earlier today, on a day that has so far felt like in the middle of time standing still this, up to now 7pm has felt like seconds and years at the same time.
I uploaded it after being up all night and day.
How many quiet, high-functioning people with BPD are hiding it that well – so well as to make their pain and reality invisible to those closest to them? So “well” that not living is for all too many, the only option they feel they have?